i hate that i'm like this. but seeing you like this makes me feel feelings i don't want to feel. i should be feeling proud, happy, nostalgic... but i feel these negative feelings. i wish... if only...
and then to think about what will happen in around a month... it hurts. i thought i would be fine with it, but now it's eating me on the inside.
you always told me never to go to bed mad at someone. but it looks like i'll be going to sleep pretty soon unless you say something first.
