can't get enough of you.

you take my breath away.
you help me breathe easy.

you mean the world to me.
you are my world of color.

selfish.

smile though your heart is aching. smile even though it's breaking. although there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by.

it's all i've ever wanted in my whole life. and i hate myself for it.

i'm only me when i'm with you.

it's just one of those days when i have to stop and think about how lucky i am.

"i want to cuddle with you forever."

"you know, it's weird. when we're together i'm not 100% there, just because it's so unbelievable. you're so wonderful and i can't believe i get to be with you."

i've never felt this way before in my whole life. it's incredible. i feel so completely like myself when i'm with you. and like there's a part of me missing when i'm not. there aren't any barriers. i can be so open and honest and myself and i love that.

the only bad part is when we have to go home.

just a few.

it was the worst thought that I've ever thought. And yet, I still can't get it out of my mind.

so tired. Mentally. Physically. Mostly emotionally.

worlds waiting for me to invent them.

I feel so humbly thankful. someone who will never know me indirectly believes in me. his loved ones trust me with fulfilling things he didn't have the chance to. i am so blessed and feel so inspired.

i really need to get over that. its becoming obsessive and i'm acting like a maniac.

i didn't stop thinking about you all day and then when i ran into you unexpectedly i acted stupid and now i can't stop beating myself up about it.

i'm trying to stay positive, but this is going to be the hardest thing in the whole world. i've never been so sad about being so happy.

perchance.

perchance three years ago i fell in love with him. or at least i thought so in my immature fourteen year old mind.

and today you said those same words and they generated the same feeling they did in me three years ago.

perchance this time it's real.

let's make this last forever.


[forever could never be long enough for me to feel like i've had long enough with you]

:) :(

i've never felt this way in my whole life. i am so completely happy. nothing can get me down. everything is beautiful. i can't believe i got this lucky. life is good. you just... AH.

here comes the bad news. classes start on august 18th, meaning i'd move in like a week before then. i can't. i need more time. i'm not ready to move on. and how am i supposed to be open to change and be the kind of person people want to be friends with when i'll still be so invested in my life back in mb? i'll be making the biggest change of my life and i'll be heart broken. why can't i just have one more year here?

ne dit personne.

I did it. I did it. I did it. I'm so proud of myself. I know I did the right thing. And on the bright side, I'll never ever have to do it again!

it took me 4 days, but the important thing is I did it!!!

now there's that other thing I have to do, which is going to be hard but not as hard as this was.

growing up takes responsibility man.

seventy two.

i never thought.

was it a dream?

i feel numb.

two.

two months today. you forgot, but it's okay. it doesn't change the fact that:

"you're always in my heart, always on my mind. when it all becomes too much, you're never far behind. and there's no one that comes close to you who could ever take your place."