i hate cliques. why can't we all just love each other? i hate feeling excluded in a place i'm supposed to feel safe to be myself constantly. i thought i was through with this. obviously not. i just want to go to college already and be rid of this. although i can't be sure it'll go away. i just need a fresh group of people and make some new friends. and to realize there's life outside of the costa drama department. i forget sometimes.
i hate when you exclude me or disregard what i say in public situations. i try to bring up something fun and silly or make you laugh and you look away or turn to everyone else and say how dumb what i just said was. or when i have something important to tell you and you just don't care. we get along fine when it's just the two of us. but it's like you don't want everyone else to know you're actually friends with me. i don't know what you're problem is. oh, and that was gross. really really gross.
i hate that you're making a big deal out of NOTHING. no matter how many times i tell you it meant nothing you don't believe me. what you did hurt me too but i wasn't about to make a huge deal out of it or anything. i felt bad about it for a while but then i realized that i really did nothing wrong. i can't believe you compared me to her. this is not the same AT ALL. i don't want to lose your friendship, but i don't know what else to do.
you are extremely arrogant and immature. i'm glad to be rid of you. oh, and i sort of agree with what they said.
i can't now. and i'm sad that i can't, but i know it's for the best.
i wish i could love you. but wishing i could love you isn't really loving i suppose.
if anyone actually took the time to read this, i'm sorry. i just really needed to vent.
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